Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Taking time to smell the coffee...

So, as we have Jayden's best friend over tonight while her mommy is at class, and her daddy is playing softball....we decided to take them to the park. It's not a new thing for us to have her over here....We watch her foten, and we love it. It's so fun to see how she interacts with Emilyn, and especially finny to watch her and Jayden play. I watch her and wonder what Emilyn will be like when she's that age. They are both so loving towards Emi, so it's wonderful.

I'm not sure what sparked this tonight as we were at teh park behind the house getting out some energy, but I started thinking....I started thinking about all those precious moments we have with our children and how quickly they pass by. How quickly they grow up, and how quickly children these days seem to lose their innocence.

I was taking pictures of all of them playing....and I caught this one picture of Emilyn. She wasn't quite looking at the camera, the wind had her hair, and she was smiling so big. It was at that moment and time I stopped for a few moments and realized just how precious life is, just how much of a miracle baby she is, just how lucky we are to have her. Seriously though. When push comes to shove....if I would have been pregnant with her for even one more day, she might not have survived. My amniotic fluid levels were way too low, and there was way too much pressure on her umbilical cord. If it weren't for the 2 doctors that I received care from, I don't know where I'd be today. They did so much for me, and I'll never be able to repay them. Thank you is all I can say, but it's not enough. There will never be enough words to express just how lucky I am that I had them.

I guess what sparked this whole reminiscince today was a conversation I was having with one of my friends. We try to meet once a week if not more for lunch...and we are able to talk and get things off....just confide and laugh with each other. It's a great mid day stress relief to the work day. So we were talking today about dates that we will never ever forget. Yes, there is your wedding day, the day your kids are born.....but what about those other unforseen events that are life changing? Those maybe not to happy go lucky events... Her's was when her husband was in a major car accident. He was soooo lucky he survived, because if you were to see the truck, you'd wonder how he made it through. He's had a loooong road to recovery and hopefully just had his 9th and final surgery for this year. She went through all that basically alone. With her daughter who was still under 6 mos at the time, and her son who was 9. She'll never forget the call she received from CHP, and I'll never forget the call I received from her right after. I feel blessed that I was the first call she made after his mother. I feel blessed she felt she could lean and turn to me.

Mine, well mine was August 28th 2009. I had my U/S that day. Directly after the U/S I went to the promotion ceremony to see my friend who was going to be promoted. Directly after the ceremony I got in the car and looked and my phone, 46 missed calls, all from DGMC...whithin an hour or so. My first resction was that it was some mess up with their automated phone system. Ironically, the next call was from DGMC and it was the "appointment reminder system" telling me about an appointment. So, I figured that was it. Less than 2 minutes later, another phone call from DGMC, interesting....I picked it up. Only this time, it was my doctor on the other end. He asked if I could meet him in his office. This was after duty 5:30pm. He should have been home already, but he'd been trying to get a hold of me. I asked if everything was okay, and all he said was "I'll see you in a little bit, drive safe." Now my mind is racing....what's really going on? Maybe he can't be my OB anymore and I'm meeting him replacement....yea, that has to be it! I get there, and he sits me down, looks at me in the eyes and says, "I really don't like to bring bad news, and there really is no easy way to say this..." Mind still wandering.... "They noticed some issues with your U/S. Your amniotic fluid levels are barely above a 5, you should be at least over 10. Anything under 5 is not safe for baby. And baby, she's significatly slowed her growth down by 50%, and she's not meeting up with the gestational age properly." Wow! Shocker. Tears were rolling down my face, I didn't know what to say or do. He followed with, "I'm referring you to the specialists up in Sac to see what they think, and get an opinion from a perinatologist. Starting Monday, I want you to do to L&D twice a week to get NST/AFI's done to monitor baby, and I want you to come see me weekly, and the other doctor (HROB) once every other week. We're going to be very proactive." I knew from the moment he said those things that I had picked the best OB possible. Still, I couldn't held the tears from flowing. I was so scared. I was no longer just a normal pregnancy. I couldn't go run and frolic, I had to be careful. Suddenly my second "perfect pregnancy" that I was so sure I was going to have was slipping away. It went from being a standard normal pregnancy to "super high risk" in the blink of an eye. Yup, that's the day I'll never forget!

Now, I cherish my little girl. After all that, plus preterm labor, a scare that almost landed me having her at 32wks, and 2 admissions to the hospital before delivery...... She's happy and healthy and I couldn't ask for more.

What are the moments you'll never forget that are beyond our measure?

Cherish life today, and live for those little moments.....they'll be gone before we know it.

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